Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @ 4:41 AM
25 February 09,
8.42pm,Wednesday Night,
Dear Blog,
She really hates me....and i mean really hate me.....
Theres no point trying to make it right already....
I pray that she score for the semi finals and she did....
i cry when we lost the b girls tournament....i cry bacause i saw her crying and i could not help her....maybe she hates me....
Its been a long time that i wanted to apologise....why cant you understand...i just want a break time....i just want to rest....but make it more complicated.....i ask you to forgive me...but instead,you told to stay on the path i am going...avoiding you....and you said i lie...about not reminding that @#$%& one,well,i did remind you,i reminded you after my our b boys match when you guys were waiting at the mrt for us...i call you to ask you where....and i reminded you....and you said ok.....when we went to KFC to eat,you just sit there....talking to jaypal and giving his present i guess....you just sat there...not even remembering it....after like only 15 mins.....if you think i lied...i swear at my sister up at the stars that i did remind you.....
Do you really hate me like that much??....
Does it makes you happy??.....
Will be happier by doing that??...
Will you not move on??....
Do you only care for yourself??....
Do you not want to settle this??....
Are you making my life difficult??...
Cause if you are happier....i'm happier too....if you felt good doing this,please continue....i rather ask you to hate me more.....hate me that everytime you wanna see my face,you feel like killing me....hate me like you hate veronica or even more....your words make me take back my promise to myself....your words cut a hole...your words evens me hate myself more....your words makes everything look bad....if you like how i feel right now...if you like me being sad...please continue....please make my life i living hell....please make everyone hate me....please destroy me.....
but i hope you remember this.you are always a friend to me and will always be.....i dont care if you shot millions of bullet at me....i'll endure it.....i'll move on....i'll be happy.....if you are still living in the past,who are you to judge anyone.....if you speak highly of yourself,think first....if you like wad you are doing to me right now.....please,continue....i'm fine....if you hate my face,disfigure it,make it ugly....make me sad....
but i wont hate you more....i'll just remain the same....dont worry...i'll move on...and i hope you do too....and congratz on your literature test results!....hahas....must be optimistic!....tough and hardy...Mrs Ng,thks for your advise to move on....cause i will....Start a new fresh life....even if i have no friends,i start anew....only i must determine my fate in life....
So...Hate me more if you like it...i'll be fine...=D